Should I stop him?

[misscarty]

I need to talk NOW to you wonderful ladies.

So I decided to take the plunge and visit my dads' a few weeks ago, as I haven't visited him in about a month and I had to buy birthday presents. (There's multiple reasons why I don't visit him). So, he drank a few beers like he usually does, and a scotch whisky to top it off, and I had one as well. So, I logged onto the computer, sorting out my posts and editing chapters as usual when he asks me if I am going to visit him this weekend. I told him I wasn't as I'm going to see the procession of Richard III across our area, he sighed and asked if I could come again. He made me feel guilty, then he went to sleep, I was free, well I thought. A few hours went past then he gets up, fumbles around, looks at me and calls me a 'cunt' and 'bastard', I wanted to cry but I bottled. He carried on sleeping and I went into the bathroom and CRIED, so much that my throat was hoarse and eyes puffy and my body was physically shaking. Then, the computer freezes and I'm so angry and upset that I moan,  he comes over to me and smacks me on the arm and bum, he then hits me on the arm. He then told me that I should not move away and that I'm 'his property', which I'm not.

He called me fat and ugly and I wanted to punch him in the face, but I refrained from doing so. I has to sleep at that horrible man's place for that night, driving myself to my Mum's only to break down in my room, I screamed and shouted wanting to get those horrible recalls of the day out of head. Only, I can't, I have an excellent memory and autism. So, I find it difficult to be open, especially about my feelings, hence bottling.

He constantly holds things against me and keeps on going on about his illness towards me, burdening. He also threatens me that he will commit suicide and this leads to me losing sleep, so I thought I would want to-lead by example. Then, I think of my family and friends and how devastated they'd be so I started counselling and I've been writing a lot more since then.

I feel that I should restrain this man, Raymond Cart. He is not nice and deserves to be punished as emotional abuse is illegal, or so I think.

I maybe 21, but I deserve respect from my own father.

Help Me.

~Chrissie

[mbwl]

Hi Chrissie,
I know he is your dad but I don't think you should ever go back and stay with him again. Nothing he does is your fault. It is emotional & physical abuse. Go to counselling if you feel you need it, look after yourself and put yourself first. You are important and worthy of respect.
I wish you all the best and take care of yourself.
I'm not on here very often, so don't worry if I don't reply to posts.
M

[misscarty]

Turns out that I started counselling yesterday. He's sociopathic so he won't understand if he's prosecuted as this is an offence. To be honest, this has been going on for six months or more but this is the first time it's been this bad. I hope that talking to someone will help but I try to take care of myself and take control. I'm moving to the other side of the country so I will never have to visit him again, thank goodness.

~ Chrissie