Post by lisamarie on Jun 1, 2009 20:36:03 GMT -6
I wasn't sure really where to post this. I belong to a mommy board, a photography board, the fan club board, etc. But there are reasons I can't post this to those places. Competition from the photography board, of course. Anyway, I feel like I have lost my spark lately. I would say the last 6 months. I don't feel totally motivated to do much. And when I do, I am not fully happy about it. I am a professional photographer, and I adore my work. Usually. But I hardly have any clients lately, because I don't feel motivated to finish my new web site and advertise. I am not sure what is going on with me. I work for myself so after the kids get on the bus the say is my own. I will get my work done when I have work. But I feel unmotivated around the house, too. Well, who does. lOL I am starting a running program (big stretch, have at least 40 pounds to lose and hate running). But I will find every reason not to do it. i am pushing myself. But my mood isn't upbeat most of the time. I am fine when I am doing something that I have to do. So I don't think I am depressed in the least. I had company last week, by aunt came for week. We had a blast. Went out with hubby Friday night dancing, had a blast. I was HAPPY. I just seem to be missing motivation in my own life and that spark of interest in things. Not sure what is up with me. 
